everything

:( isn't enough to show how i feel

Wed, 10 Dec 2008 02:08:37 GMT

feeling so down
just want to melt into the ground

lying in the bathtub
my body looks like a frog on its back

can't have everything
not even a friend like you

there seems to be no end
no rest for my old, broken spirit

i'll never get old

Sun, 30 Nov 2008 18:32:24 GMT

so i feel good about the future but not about old age
i don't think i'll ever let myself turn into someone i don't want to be
i plan on dying before age 40

WEdoDECLAREpoisonBERRY

Thu, 16 Oct 2008 07:37:18 GMT

my childhood-the good years..lol:
red raspberry frozen wet smears on aphoulstry
child's laughter in background telephone rings
open sliding glass door gree grass yard folding chair
sand dry smooth dry dig cool sudd3n pain jerk arm swollen finger sting
looking up reach for rope ladder climb tree grab rough wood hoist ass up
windy cold night black sky filled with stars open space mouth hangs wide
we knew a secret made us giggle with glee not exactly knowing why did not care loved to smile
we could go anywhere together
running free across hilly pastures contagious combustable crow and grin
barefoot street indoor hardwood floors drafty absorbing magnetic couch coffee table
handstands cart wheels sidewalk in front of grandma's house

oh- you didn't know?
i get sentimental and like to write it on the internet sometimes even though it doesn't make that much sense to anyone?
yep.
i do that.
you are still reading this because?

415

shotgun double
hot mess
tall grass
dirt inbetween by toes.
grab the doorknob
wipe the feet
shake your skin.
drop kick my depression.
i look at the 19 years behind me.
fat bright lemons
sitting on the island.
black and white tiled kitchen floor
painted white brick chimney
chutes through the ceiling.
run up wooden stairs creaking
the sun stares through my window
and lights up the dust floating in the air.
roll on the carpet
laughter lightens the atmosphere
holds me in this house

Questionable Motives

Wed, 08 Oct 2008 04:18:34 GMT

thought that happens when:
you're driving fast down a windy, dark, desolate, tree-lined street
street car huffing and screeching by
smiling white teeth grinding eternal mask of madness binding infernal
danger crossing the train tracks in your mind
cruising...searching...stalking
your car becomes a shark in a sea with other predators
find a groove through the night
let literacy lead you to believe you're learned
a million other lights thoughts actions during that last stoplight
feeling wild and daring and crazed
keeping it inconspicuous
counting on the ridiculous
family, roots, and childhood live here in this bowl of a city
dancing amoung the shrubbery and shadows
safe under the cloak of night
you stealthily step against the cracked sidwalk
not a nickel in your pocket but free like barefeet
wouldn't trade your spot in this mess
cuz the view right now's the best
exhale the fire in your lungs
burnt taste of smoke in your mouth
as cold air rushes over the skin of your face
no destination sets the pace
keep your chin up
with your gloves up
don't think i'll ever really grow up
like a time bomb about to blow up
listening and waiting and anticipating
some event that will pull me away from these endless days

blossom

Sat, 20 Sep 2008 00:03:01 GMT

i feel the dread
weighing my thoughts down
down the stairs where
my dad is watching tv by himself
if you knew my dad you would know why this sucks

in a summer's afternoon

Wed, 20 Aug 2008 00:24:01 GMT

my heart sings!

a step ahead

Wed, 11 Jun 2008 21:15:02 GMT

so the world is no less confusing than yesteryear

so many people
so many ways of life

mischa mischa mischaaaaa

Mon, 28 Apr 2008 01:17:46 GMT

everyone who knows this legend of new orleans knows that 9 out of 10 people in a room will agree that this creature is what an angel would look like if it was carved out of the finest marble....yes this is a fact...i, however, am the 1 out of 10 people will disagree with this.... please feel to leave comments= i'm am interested in how many of my "friends" are like. me or like them.

jeffery lewis

Sun, 23 Mar 2008 08:30:24 GMT

is magical...
so here's to sleepless nights.

my discovery

Sun, 17 Feb 2008 17:01:21 GMT

sufjan stevens..pretty good

ps- t hanks kris

Sat, 02 Feb 2008 00:48:18 GMT

somebody that i used to know- elliott smith
stars of track and field- belle and sebastian
lull- andrew bird
lua- bright eyes
engine heart- mirah
the biggest lie- elliott smith
perfect day- lou reed
walk on the wild side- lou reed
ghost- neutral milk hotel

So i'm going to krewe d'etat tonight or i think i'm going to muses...which ever one is later....i'm pretty stoked. . . . . . . . . . . . just killing a little time ...:P

"It' such a gorgeous sight to see you eat in the middle of the night!!"

Tue, 29 Jan 2008 23:59:27 GMT

That's my favorite cure lyric.
oh friday i'm in love!!

ash wed-nes-day

Wed, 23 Jan 2008 01:25:10 GMT

1. one thing that irks me is the smell of perfume or body spray on skin that smells like it's covering b.o. cuz it smells really bad.

2. i love sleeping in the nude

3. i have a blue phone cover.

4. my favorite time of day is twighlight or mid morning...

5. sometimes i judge people as cool or not by what they have in their ipod. i know- lame.

6. i listen to jack johnson when my heart is sick.

7. i want another tattoo.

O.M.G.

Fri, 18 Jan 2008 17:43:12 GMT

I LOVE LIFE RIGHT NOW!!!
I know it sounds cliche', but I really think i do!
i am eating a peppermiint stick from my christmas tree...it's january 18.

Sew...

Sun, 13 Jan 2008 23:03:04 GMT

I just got into bloc party....MOdern LOve
i have school tomorrow.
currently my favorite phrase is KILL SOME TIME
i'd like to kill time with my friends.........violently, gently, swiftly, deliciously, quietly, LOUDLY...

also my current happy songs are:
paper planes- M.I.A.
knock em out- Lily Allen
turn into something- Animal Collective
this charming man- the Smiths
etc etc etc

HHHAA

Sat, 12 Jan 2008 17:58:37 GMT

yay
i have a job at Crepes a La Carte
booo
i have community service hours - 38 more...hah...

so far i've had trash in/on my shoes, socks, skin, hair ...and mud - lots of mud...
but at least im working outside... get to walk around and shit...ususally it's pretty.

been a while

Fri, 11 Jan 2008 00:30:59 GMT

so far the year of 2998 has spread a cancer in me....not literally...but i feel like it's gonna overtake my body until all im left doing is drool and sit watching other people live.

animal collective is the shit

Thu, 25 Oct 2007 17:54:52 GMT

i love them

alot

:) :) :) :D :P :) :) :) :)

so anyways, school has gotten a little better

dont kid yerself

Mon, 08 Oct 2007 00:38:25 GMT

i declare

Wed, 03 Oct 2007 00:40:16 GMT

"Today has never happened, and I'm not scared at all." - Bjork

that line helps me get out of bed in the morning

ah spend mah daze

Mon, 24 Sep 2007 00:29:56 GMT

waitin
for
something
to happen

new d a y

Thu, 20 Sep 2007 00:12:11 GMT

i had a good day....
ate a lot of peanut butter too....

call edge

Mon, 27 Aug 2007 22:00:29 GMT

not so bad...
homesickk....

: > (

Fri, 27 Jul 2007 01:04:49 GMT

right now im at my aunt's house in houston.
right now im stuck at my aunt's house in houston.
i cant get out.
i am living in fear
very stressful.

help.

XO

Wed, 11 Jul 2007 21:16:22 GMT

So im bitchin on the internet cuz no one's listening....

yesterday my mom said i looked pregnant.
today, my sister an i got in a fight and she tried to make fun of me with my brother which DIDN'T work because a) i was standing right behind her and heard the whole thing and b) what she was saying was a total lie...AND i never see her anyways so i asked her to get coffee before we fought..so after i called her on her pitiful lie, i went next door and my grandpa decided my new nickname is "chubs." i wanted to cry on the spot...what's worse is after i stormed out my house saying i didnt want coffee, she didnt even come next door to try and dissuade me. SHE IS SO SELFISH.